07-27-25
Weather: Cloudy
Listening to: Dai the Flu by Deftones‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ......‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ Staring at my bank account after I paid my tuition for the semester… I go to college almost on full ride, but I still have a couple thousand to pay after all my scholarships are deducted. Now that they’re raising the tuition year by year it seems, I might have to pay more and more. Or just take out a loan lol. I’m a bit excited to go back to school because I honestly love the routine of school and it also means I get to leave home It will be my second year rooming with my roommate, but I don’t know if i’m excited. She’s so talkative! Like talkative in a way that she always talks over me and disregards what I say and I have to spend an hour+ just listening to her alone daily. It’s like she just wants to talk to a wall and expects no input, but the wall is me, and I really badly want out! I only speak when spoken to so it’s very overwhelming when I’m with someone loud and talkative. I would feel at fault if I were to just ignore her because there’s no harm in her talking at the end of the day. She also randomly decided to stop using deodorant because of the “chemicals” and then didn’t try to compensate with anything else. The day we were moving out for the summer, my mom was angry at me because it was unbearable. She was angry that I didn’t say anything. My mom is very particular about hygiene and would absolutely kill me if I walked around smelling like that. She also never cleaned the bathroom we share, and when I confronted her about it she said she didn’t know that we had any cleaning suppplies even though I have a ton, and how else was I cleaning the bathroom, with hand soap and paper towels? That’s a whole other issue that I hope gets solved this year. I stay with her because quite honestly I’m scared of rooming with anyone else, and apartments where I could sleep alone are expensive. Roommate horror stories scare me, and she isn’t that bad, if I choose to deal with what I just mentioned… and others that I didn’t mention. I don’t think she does anything out of malice, or maybe I’m way off on how I read others.