魂 代: Ali Project
Through the dense forest, on plains covered with snow, and alongside frozen rivers, you make it back home... somehow
Rose's Diary. . . 
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Sept 10th
Sadly I won’t be able to update anything other than my diary page maybe for the foreseeable future. Slumped with school work and I’m way more tired and low energy and drained than I would be in the summer. New addition to my miffy collection! The miffy labubu but it’s way better and cuter than a labubu. In all seriousness it's so cute with the little scarf! All bundled up for the cold weather we'll be getting. I want the white one as well, but I can’t find it anywhere....
Now that I’m turning 20 (not that soon to be honest but I'm just too excited) I really wanna turn a new leaf. I wanna get serious about self improvement. I’ve already been incorporating some habits so it wouldn’t all be at once when I turned 20. Basic ones to start. I think starting a new decade afresh is exciting. Hopefully if everything plays out during my 20’s, I will be financially independent, properly medicated, happier, surrounded by what I love, doing what I love without being demotivated, traveling and exploring the world, learning a lot of languages and cultures, just learning in general to be honest. I’ve been in a lot of really dark places at such a young age, and I want to give younger me a future that they deserve. I surely don’t want to live out the rest of my life in this state. Hopefully I’ll have this site around long enough to document my 20’s, and I hope you all are still here as well! I definitely do have a lot of plans for this site that I can’t wait to execute. Be patient!!
Sept 5th
Face card was carrying this low quality wig. #imdeletinglatermaybebutthiswasmetoday.
Also why did no one tell me that I had "sept 4rd" instead of "sept 4th" I always forget to change them when I copy and paste the heading I hope no one saw that oh my god. I honestly don't know what to do with this diary page. I feel like this summer I spent just oversharing. That's why I deleted everything. I don't really feel like using this place to do that anymore, but now my entries sound so flat and boring. I dont know.
Sept 4th
I don't think I've ever mentioned the fact that I don't eat meat on here. I don't know if I classify as vegan because I do eat milk products and pastries with egg ingredients sometimes. For me, not eating meat is something that started around when I was 8 or so, and it's due to my own brain working against me than anything. Life without meat isn't all bad actually. I am more proactive about getting all my nutrients such as protein and iron than I think someone who eats meat would. I think it has also made my family eat meat less because most foods my mom makes has to be something that I can also eat. It is very difficult outside home to eat because my options most of the time is either salad, starve, or something with meat inside. Thankfully, my mom stocks my fridge with home food lol. I think now though since the wider population has become more accepting of diets like mine, there are a variety of places that offer foods that I can eat. I think it's funny since I'm not squeamish with it comes to human human blood or flesh, hence my interest in the workings of the brain and body. Also in my soci class today, a pretty masc person sat next to me, only for them to whip out chatgpt to write their hall council application, aura points -10000000000000000.
Sept 3rd
My diary page is still wip, but I thought to write an actual coherent entry so that I can have something when I complete it sometime this week (probably on the weekend). We had an involvement fair which is basically when all the clubs on campus set up booths and advertise what they do. Went after my 3 hour biochem lab (booo), but this year was more packed than last year! I think I'm planning on joining the painting, illustration, and film club. There were a lot of other cool clubs, but I don't think I'm into any of those enough to be in them. That's probably just me being conscious lol. Kinda hoping they had like a html/css webdesign club or something, but that's not really something a lot of people do unless it's their job. The clubs here are also mostly stem heavy so I didn't really see anything else that interested me. I'm actually going to socialize this year if I don't may lightning strike me on November 29th, 2025 at 5:18 pm!!!!!! I'm excited to join the painting club because I don't show my art to people irl. Aside from my highschool friends who were all also artists, no one knows that I draw. Hopefully I'll be able to make some artist friends yay. It's astonishing how closed off I am. A skill not a lot of people can achieve without killing themselves... mental illness is kinda craaazy (get me out of here!)
Sept 10th
Sadly I won’t be able to update anything other than my diary page maybe for the foreseeable future. Slumped with school work and I’m way more tired and low energy and drained than I would be in the summer. New addition to my miffy collection! The miffy labubu but it’s way better and cuter than a labubu. In all seriousness it's so cute with the little scarf! All bundled up for the cold weather we'll be getting. I want the white one as well, but I can’t find it anywhere....
Now that I’m turning 20 (not that soon to be honest but I'm just too excited) I really wanna turn a new leaf. I wanna get serious about self improvement. I’ve already been incorporating some habits so it wouldn’t all be at once when I turned 20. Basic ones to start. I think starting a new decade afresh is exciting. Hopefully if everything plays out during my 20’s, I will be financially independent, properly medicated, happier, surrounded by what I love, doing what I love without being demotivated, traveling and exploring the world, learning a lot of languages and cultures, just learning in general to be honest. I’ve been in a lot of really dark places at such a young age, and I want to give younger me a future that they deserve. I surely don’t want to live out the rest of my life in this state. Hopefully I’ll have this site around long enough to document my 20’s, and I hope you all are still here as well! I definitely do have a lot of plans for this site that I can’t wait to execute. Be patient!!
Sept 5th
Face card was carrying this low quality wig. #imdeletinglatermaybebutthiswasmetoday.
Also why did no one tell me that I had "sept 4rd" instead of "sept 4th" I always forget to change them when I copy and paste the heading I hope no one saw that oh my god. I honestly don't know what to do with this diary page. I feel like this summer I spent just oversharing. That's why I deleted everything. I don't really feel like using this place to do that anymore, but now my entries sound so flat and boring. I dont know.
Sept 4th
I don't think I've ever mentioned the fact that I don't eat meat on here. I don't know if I classify as vegan because I do eat milk products and pastries with egg ingredients sometimes. For me, not eating meat is something that started around when I was 8 or so, and it's due to my own brain working against me than anything. Life without meat isn't all bad actually. I am more proactive about getting all my nutrients such as protein and iron than I think someone who eats meat would. I think it has also made my family eat meat less because most foods my mom makes has to be something that I can also eat. It is very difficult outside home to eat because my options most of the time is either salad, starve, or something with meat inside. Thankfully, my mom stocks my fridge with home food lol. I think now though since the wider population has become more accepting of diets like mine, there are a variety of places that offer foods that I can eat. I think it's funny since I'm not squeamish with it comes to human human blood or flesh, hence my interest in the workings of the brain and body. Also in my soci class today, a pretty masc person sat next to me, only for them to whip out chatgpt to write their hall council application, aura points -10000000000000000.
Sept 3rd
My diary page is still wip, but I thought to write an actual coherent entry so that I can have something when I complete it sometime this week (probably on the weekend). We had an involvement fair which is basically when all the clubs on campus set up booths and advertise what they do. Went after my 3 hour biochem lab (booo), but this year was more packed than last year! I think I'm planning on joining the painting, illustration, and film club. There were a lot of other cool clubs, but I don't think I'm into any of those enough to be in them. That's probably just me being conscious lol. Kinda hoping they had like a html/css webdesign club or something, but that's not really something a lot of people do unless it's their job. The clubs here are also mostly stem heavy so I didn't really see anything else that interested me. I'm actually going to socialize this year if I don't may lightning strike me on November 29th, 2025 at 5:18 pm!!!!!! I'm excited to join the painting club because I don't show my art to people irl. Aside from my highschool friends who were all also artists, no one knows that I draw. Hopefully I'll be able to make some artist friends yay. It's astonishing how closed off I am. A skill not a lot of people can achieve without killing themselves... mental illness is kinda craaazy (get me out of here!)
Into the Mind
