May 22nd 2025 
Guess who decided to take a neuro cell biology summer class in 3 weeks with material that would usually take 4 months? I just wanted to fit in 2 sociology classes in the fall and wanted to have a less full schedule! Physically, I feel horrible. Mentally? even worse. I've never been this stressed academically. If I vanish for a week or so to lock in, I hope you all will understand.
On a more depressing note, it's almost summer and I am saddened to say that I haven't made a single friend in college... woops. I do have some phone numbers, but no one I talk to frequently. To be fair, it's almost entirely my fault. I stopped going to clubs 2 weeks after classes started, I isolated myself in every lecture I attended. I mostly stayed in my room. I know that when I do all that I want to do with my life, probably in my 20's, I'll finally take my own life. There isn't any point in living beyond that. I wouldn't want to hurt too many people when I do. I deny myself of so much.